When God Is Silent

This past weekend I had the chance to go on a retreat and, for starters, get really close with some great people. The purpose of this post is the message I liked the most, though. It was “when God is silent”. The whole topic made me start thinking about how I actually react when God is silent. I’m not quick to seek Him out and find Him in situations. I’m quick to do quite the opposite by finding everything I feel that I can’t see Him in (which is 100% wrong to begin with but that’s another story). When God is silent, so am I. I don’t seek to talk to Him or even think about Him, I seek quick fixes and wallow in my sadness. I want to challenge myself to be as loud as God can be (not possible but that’s why it’s the goal😉) when He is being silent in my life. I’m not asking for answers, I’m asking to see Him in the situation.

Sometimes, You Have To.

Sometimes, you have to. Sometimes, you have to eat when you’re sick because you know it’ll make you feel worse if you don’t. Sometimes, you have to work even when you feel you’re too tired. Sometimes, you need to end a friendship because it’s more toxic than uplifting. Sometimes, you have to apologize even when you don’t want to.

Sometimes, you have to have faith that things will work out the way God planned, even when it seems impossible.

Sometime…

You have to.

By Your Side

We all have to know by now that Maggie is a Tenth Avenue North fangirl. Seeing them in concert a few months back was such an amazing experience and I can’t even describe how great they are. There’s no need for studio editing their voices (that’s the statement I’m going with because I cannot seem to word very well tonight), because they’re naturally extremely gifted. So anyways enough rambling and onto the actual meaning of this post…

“Why are you striving these days, why are you still trying to earn grace, why are you crying, let me lift up your face, just don’t turn away”. Okay, woah. I’m never sure where to even begin with how I’d explain that because it could mean a million new, different things every time you read it. We’re striving to be the best when, let’s be honest, why does that actually matter? If we are who we are and that’s what we stick with then how can there be a best? Best. Adjective. A word I’d call pointless if it weren’t in our bovine dictionaries. He wants us to give our lives for Him, yet we turn our faces away from the very thing we need.

“Why are you looking for love, why are you still searching, as if I’m not enough, to where will you go child, tell me where will you run, to where will you run”. We look in this world for things that we think can sustain ourselves and we try to thrive off of other people; whether it means we use their attention or we build our thrones out of the people we stepped on to get there. If God isn’t enough what is? We run to the easiest thing that seems to help us like drugs or hurting ourselves, but if you honestly think about it, what good has ever come from them? There’s no Earthly thing we can run to that will sustain us like God, and he’s the easiest thing to hold onto.

“Cause I’ll be by your side whenever you fall, in the dead of night whenever you call, and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you, my hands are holding you”. He will never leave us nor will He turn us away if we’re broken. He wants us because we’re broken so He can show us how He can break our shackles.

Sorry for the long post, I was feeling a little bit of a longer one tonight and I needed to reassure two people who means so much to me that I’m not giving up on God or them.

And for the little lady out there (and you know who you are) that I talked to about hurting yourself tonight, this post was created for you ma petite amour.

People Do Care

Time to share more memories from this past retreat I went on. 🙂

We had times where we were assigned small groups and that’s when we would share our thoughts on the previous lesson and share prayer requests. When it came around to share what I struggled with lately, and I felt the need to really share what’s on my heart. Being the emotional person I was, of course I was crying. As I shared about the times I felt lonely and like nobody cared about me, quite a few of them cried as well. I sat at a table and saw 9 girls hearts breaking for me and I don’t think I will ever be able to get that image out of my head. Moral of the story: People Do Care.

Retreat

This past weekend I went on a retreat. I was quite nervous, whether people could notice or not, about having a reaction from my medical issues. I was surprised to find myself feeling sick but not even caring half of the time. I’m big on comfort, so I’m used to stopping something if it means I feel better in any ways at all. Usually if I’m having horrible stomach pain, I stop singing during worship; But, like I said, this time I didn’t seem to care. I had an amazing time hanging with a great group of friends that I love to death. Lately in my life, I haven’t been able to say this very much, but God was definitely there. I have a long way to go but it’s worth, isn’t it?

Allergies

I’m not sure about you guys, but I definitely get seasonal allergies. So, when you get allergies or any kind of sickness for that matter- what do you do? You take medication. Drink lots of water. Get some rest. Can’t this apply to our walk with God in life? If we are going through a bump or rough time, those are the kind of things you should do. Get your daily dose of God. Take in lots of The Word of God. Spend some quiet time listening for Him. Whether you’re sick or going through a rough time in your personal walk with God, there is one key thing you need- Prayer.       🙂

Stress

Man, stress can be very, very annoying sometimes. Actually, it’s all the time that it’s annoying. But, we Christians are lucky that we have something more than just calming ourselves down to deal with stress, we have the power of prayer. Although it may seem that we still have it very hard, and we do, any non-Christian doesn’t know what to do. We have this amazing foundation that we take advantage of sometimes and don’t use it wisely. It’s a privilege that we get to talk to The Father. Instead of praying for self-matters only, thank God for what we have because of Him.

Why do people reject God?

Why do people reject God? It’s obviously not because they don’t want to be able to think that there really is someone protecting you. Even though they may say it with the most convincing expression on their face, don’t we know it’s not true? Some people are hiding from the truth and they need prayer. If you know someone who really is yearning for the LORD and doesn’t know it, stop and pray for them right now. They might realize that He is there, and when they do, that will make them sooooo happy. Don’t you want to be a part of that joy?😃😃😄yes!

Broken Shells

Whole shells are beautiful. Colorful shells are beautiful. But broken shells are more than beautiful- they are role models. They keeps things nice even when it’s tough. They can even be the most beautiful ones on the beach! Next time you see a broken shell, think of a friend who keeps it together with a broken life and pray for them. They have stories to tell!

Also, I won’t be posting very much from now until July 20, sorry! I will be sooooo busy, but I will post every once in a while! 😄